It has been one month and twenty five days since I landed in the UK. How's life? Um, I don't have an exact answer to this. Yet.
Just had a 2-hour chat with my family today. I once again tore while talking to them. But this time, I controlled really hard as I was skype-ing with them, rather than through phone which I could easily cover myself. It's my first time skype-ing them here. Really great to see them all smiling so happily and so glad that we could still chat together as a family though I am now thousand miles away. I miss the four of them. A lot. Like really a lot. The four persons who make my life so perfect and so comfortable for the past 20 years in Malaysia. And now that I have to be independent in this foreign land, it's really not easy.
I feel like I have been here for a long long time. But whenever I look at the table calendar, the truth reveals. When can I go back to Malaysia? :( Sigh. I have been busy applying summer placements recently. But deep down in my heart, I don't feel like doing it at all. I dont want to do my summer placement here. I dont want to stay here for pre-reg also. I want to go back to Malaysia :( But realistically, I know I shouldn't.
I hate the plane fly-over sound I hear every night. It makes me realize how far away from home I am. I try not to think about it, but I seriously just can't sometimes. It's so quiet here at night. I miss the noise of my sister and brother which distracted me when I was doing my work last time. Their laughter which often makes me run downstairs due to curiosity. I used to complain that they were too noisy; but I promise I wont complain anymore now, as I appreciate the noise which makes me feels like I am home.
Aiya, don't want to think about all this anymore. Make me emo only. Lol. Other than being homesick, I am perfectly fine here :) Eating healthily, getting fatter. Haha. I am going back soon. I know that. Soon! :) Looking forward!
A path which I have to walk on my own. Till I am back in Malaysia. Again. :)
Till then, see you all! :D
