I miss home

Obviously this year's homesick syndrome is not as severe as last year's. But not sure if it's because I choose to ignore it or I seriously dont miss home that much already. Had few dreams which I consider nightmares recently. All of them were home-related and Wen concluded that I just miss my family too much. Having those home-missing thoughts really make me lost in deciding where should I go after I graduate. To stay or not to stay. To go back Malaysia or to go Singapore. Knowing that Malaysia has recently changed the compulsory service to 1+1 makes me feel like going home more. Not sure if anyone feels the same as me; but I feel that if I choose to work in overseas, I will not be able to experience staying together with my family anymore. Cause by the time I go back after years, my siblings will have their own families or partners, and there will not be 5-of-us-only kind of feeling anymore. I know this is life, obviously I hope my siblings could find someone meaningful in their lives and have their own families. And since I dont want them getting married late, the only thing I could do is to go back earlier and treasure my time with them from now. Very stupid isn't it. Lol.